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Fools%u2019 Journey540a computer, although I didn%u2019t actually recall a computer in the dream. But the changes didn%u2019t take, and I%u2019d have to make them all over again. Then, those wouldn%u2019t take, and I%u2019d have to start over once more. This frustrating process kept repeating over and over. Which probably contributed to the tension and headaches. I had similar, but different, repeating dreams on three other occasions, where I couldn%u2019t make some alteration that I wanted to make. In the last one, I was repeatedly trying to go through an elaborate menu on a DVD, and couldn%u2019t get anywhere.I had never had night sweats before, and these were significant. I was wet, my pillow was wet, the top and bottom sheets were wet, the two hospital blankets we used as padding under the bottom sheet were wet. On the morning this first happened, I stripped the bed completely and noticed the zippered mattress cover had also gotten wet in the area where my shoulders were, and there was a light yellow stain around the perimeter of the damp spot. I%u2019d had chills only a few times during my life, usually in association with the flu. But none of my other symptoms matched the flu. Nor did they match Covid%u2014nor any other condition we could think of. The chills were always during the day, so I wore a heavy winter bathrobe over my clothes. It didn%u2019t help, and I would just sit and shake uncontrollably. For three days I was too exhausted to get dressed, shave, or brush my teeth. And although I was taking regular showers to relieve tension and headache, I was simply standing there, letting the hot water run over my head. So for several days, I didn%u2019t have a conventional shower with soap. I didn%u2019t have the energy to eat hardly anything. Food just didn%u2019t taste the same, and it didn%u2019t settle well, although I never felt nauseous. I tried to nap during the day but often wasn%u2019t able to fall asleep%u2014even though I was exhausted.All during this time, Lynn and I talked about what it meant from a psychological standpoint. After all, we%u2019d become convinced over the years that dreams are important, and that physical symptoms usually have some sort of emotional component or cause, and this seemed like a genuine crisis. At first, our theories made some sense, but didn%u2019t quite click. Then just before I stared feeling better we figured everything out, and it all dovetailed together.